i wonder....

I started this blog sometime ago and haven't really came back to continue writing... I do have handwritten notes to add one day but today I'm writing off the cuff....


During my morning Bible study this morning...

I began to ponder a few things.... how often do we judge people by something they've done or do???

How often do we say "No" to people and push them away from serving in church because of their past or something they do that we say doesn't match up to God's word or the way God wants us to live....

How often do we say No, you're not ready.... you're not equipped???

I wonder how often that person feels that way about themselves without us telling them those things.... making them feel worse about themselves???

Now, looking at some of the Bibles messed up people...

What if....the spies that Rahab saved said No, she is just a prostitute she can't help us for she isn't living up to God's standards.... I wonder if they could see the future and know that she was in the lineage of Jesus would they condemn her and hurt her more than she probably was doing on her own??? Jesus doesn't pick the people who are living right, why should we?? God doesn't use the people equipped... look at Moses... God equips the people He chooses....

Look at David, what would we say and do to someone like him today???? Would we accept him and let him be a king(president).... would we shun him... would we push him out because he was an adulterer, a murderer... God, called him a man after His own heart....

Well now that I've wrote this I must watch how I judge people... for I don't know their heart but do I really want to judge anyone.... for the Bible is very clear, I will be judged at how I judge others... that scares me because I am very judgemental and sometimes my judgements are correct but sometimes they're very wrong.... I need to learn to pray and ask God to help me love people, reach the world but above all  love God and seek His heart.

If you feel you've been pushed away from the church because of your past... forgive them, and remember there is not a perfect church, nor a perfect person but if God has forgiven you and your past... look up and seek to serve Him however He calls...

I watched Ragamuffin on Netflix recently and as I watched it I was very judgemental by the way this guy look and what he said and did.... and I wondered if I knew this guy would I have been accepting and loving to him or would I be one that judged him and pushed him away??? What I loved was he kept going and doing as God called him if only I could say I've done that myself.... This movie was based on a true story and an amazing song writer... Rich Mullins.

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Matthew 10:26b There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known.


Let me start by giving you a little background Nov. 2002 As I prepared for the family Thanksgiving gathering to take place at my house, I needed to get some house cleaning done. This was a year when I had many health issuses(not knowing if I was going to be alive in 10 years-I'm still here so that's another story), I was working full-time, being a teacher and a mom along with being a wife  to say my days and nights were full. Cleaning would always be there so it could be put off for another day. However, some would say I was a perfectionist and had to have everything in order(they're not far off but it's more if company is coming I race to get it spotless- it does drive me crazy when something isn't in its place-working on this but still please don't mess up my fridge...lol another story)as I worked on getting my house in order, I was on the phone with my grandmother and she asked how I was doing(this was a time when I couldn't talk more than 15 min without being winded or tired- at times I'd fall asleep mid-sentence and wake up like never being asleep), I told her a little better just trying to get the house in order before Thanksgiving and in her great wisdom she said "Now Focus on what will be seen and don't worry about the rest just close those rooms off"

So today, I ponder this great advice and realize that is how some of us live our lives we put on the best clothes, shoes, smiles, hair, nails etc looking sharp on the surface where everyone sees but behind those closed closet doors we've stuffed all the things we don't want anyone to see and we go around acting all happy and put together while on the inside it's a total mess. Some call this wearing a mask but for some there are things hiding deep in our closets that we're afraid if anyone knew they'd shame us or not be our friends or think we are hopeless. In these blogs we'll learn about people that messed up and was still used by God in a mighty way.

Sisters I'm here to tell you we all put on our pants/skirts one leg at a time and we all have done things that we can't take back. So leave the past in the past and move forward- with Christ all things are possible(yes, I'm preaching to myself too).
Some of us have been abused as children which caused or causes us to act out in harmful ways and then we bring that into our adulthood, some have had marriages that crumble and working on another marriage but some may seem to have it all together and didn't make the mistakes others made. I serve a God of second....third...fourth...umpteen chances, He never gives up on us, He never leaves us!!! If we make our bed in the pit He is there so where ever you are today KNOW HE Loves you and has a great plan for you(Jeremiah 29:11) Whatever you have done or who you were can all be surrendered today and you can be found as a New creation.
Hope you enjoyed reading this and will come back as I continue this journey....